10/31/2014
The Good Spirit, who was born simultaneously with you, will come now and count out your good deeds with white pebbles, and the Evil Spirit, who was born simultaneously with you, will come and count out your evil deeds with black pebbles. Thereupon you will be greatly frightened, awed, and terrified, and will tremble; and you will attempt to tell lies, saying, "I have not committed any evil deed." Tibetan Book of the Dead
I lay awake in my bed counting my regrets and wondering if my life was for naught. Of all the people that I have wronged and owe an apology the one that deserved it the most was me, for not having accomplished all the things I have set out to do. It's been a week since I've started seeing Janie outside along with other people which I do not know. All of them always having their backs turned towards me gesturing for me to join them.
The walls in which I surround myself whisper to me every night and I long for them to stop. That night, I went down there. I told Janie we'd always be together, and now I'm going to join her. The creature behind the tree will suck my soul out and my body will grow cold and die, but at least I'll have some peace.
As I stood before the tree the creature spoke out to me. In my somber state I could barely make out what the creature was saying to me. It sounded like a voice behind static noise. "Are you ready to pay the fare as we cross into the next world?" It asked me as it's long dark arms reached out from behind the tree.
"How much is it?" I replied. At that moment I let go of everything dear to me surrendering myself to my tormentors. Whether I will be ripped to shreds, burned alive, or drowned in a river of blood I no longer cared.
It spoke again, "I need about tree-fitty." At this point I noticed that the demon behind the tree wasn't no demon at all. It was the God damn lochness monster asking me for money.
I said, "Dammit monster! I ain't giving you no tree-fitty!"