I wrote this because I am going through a friendship break up... I didn't know these things existed... BFF's are real. I liked my friend so much...even though she's ugly and doesn't offer much in terms of looks, I thought she was so cool and one of the nicest people I met. And then one day, she seemed off in her game, so I asked her what's wrong. Without explanation... she said that once she cuts someone out of her life, she doesn't go back on her word. I was so shocked... I didn't know what to say. She was a phoney from the start and I fell for her 'nice' trap. That's why I wrote a poem today. To explain how I feel about this female dog. JK, let's pretend to be friends again.
Our Breakup
Today you didn't say a thing,
When all days you happily greet me,
I wonder what went wrong?
Things don't seem right,
"Good morning" I muttered,
But you don't look at me,
Your presence is awkward,
I look at you in silence,
A piece of me screams,
"What's wrong ...what did I do?"
Moment by moment,
I try to think of what to say,
The air is too heavy,
It's hard to breathe,
Instead... I gaze down at the floor,
Throat closed up... hard to talk.
Is this it...? I wonder...
Sadden at my loss of words,
I shake my head and walk away, ...(I'm sorry)
Weeks went by,
I see you every morning,
We don't say a thing,
Yet we stand here working together in silence,
I'm getting tired,
I don't know what's going on, ...(please say something)
When work is done,
We separate like oil and water,
Days are long with nothing to do,
I don't see you because I work nights...,
The evenings draw out like long shadows,
They come and they go, ...(I can't let go)
I walk through these lonely passageways,
Once boisterous by our laughter,
You walk silently by,
Shining like a ray of sunlight,
It's all a pretend game,
You stare off into the distance,
As though I don't exist,
And I don't care to see you,
As though you died, ...(I'm dying)
The hardest part of all this,
Is not talking to someone,
You used to talk to everyday,
Now we act like two complete strangers,
After some time I started thinking,
I started to get angry, (why are you like this?)
I don't understand it, please,
How can someone who says they are your best friend,
Quickly turn 180 and walk away from you,
Without the slightest of clues,
I fumed with hatred toward you,
I fumed through your pettiness; your irrationality,
I didn't care if you didn't know but, I didn't want to care for you,
And every pain you had, I laughed at you,
Every laugh you had, I laughed at your fakeness,
My sanity lied in the way I despised you,
Then one strange day,
They came to me...and told me something I couldn't hear loud enough,
They said that they were taking me away...
My heart sunk into despair,
Is this is it? Will we never have another chance?
But I still care and I'm still hurt,
I don't know if your heart is so cold...
No, I refuse to tell you.
Remember last year....?
It's kind of funny how ...for the same exact reason,
We went to lunch and when we came back,
There was already a girl here,
They said they sent her here to replace me.
Our heartstrings tugged and pulled,
The distraught look on your face were like those of a puppy,
Back then we sat together in sadness in silence,
Holding on to each other's company,
Neither one wanted to lose the other,
My friend we were so close together,
Now you act like you don't know me,
We work in the same space you and I,
Yet you stand so far away from me as if I'm the plague,
My heart's bleeding through my sleeve,
I don't get the coldness?
There is no point to this senselessness.
I still don't know what I did wrong,
I don't know why you're so mad,
Why did you build up the great wall,
Divide us like 57th parallel,
I guess I'll never know and I guess ignorance is bliss,
But I'm now going through a fork in the road,
Things are changing too fast and I'm too young to die,
I realized that... it doesn't really matter,
You'll never gave me an explanation,
Why you ended our friendship,
Why would you even tell me...
Presumably, I'm the worst person ever,
Or maybe you were wrong and couldn't face me?
Yet I laugh even louder without you,
I know I'm still awesome and people want me on their team,
You just couldn't handle it,
And if I ever met a stubborn cow, you're it,
Even though I've done a lot for you,
Without asking for anything in return,
You've done nothing but be a good friend to me,
But, one that also shut me down without a word!
What's a good friend to me?
I still think about you and what not...
Things with words... words and stuff...
I don't know how to come to terms,
Will we never be friends again?
It still hurts to think about it...
Last I checked I'm fine,
What does a little sting matter really?
I accept that you'll never look at me again,
And I won't waste the time of day on you,
In this small, small world, this small life we chose,
Where one can neither escape the other for a while,
I did my best as any friend could do,
I loved and supported everything you did,
Anything and everything about you.
Forget it.
With this said, even if we were to meet again,
I won't pretend that I don't know you,
I'll do us a favor and erase you from my memory,
So that your pretentious dreams come true,
My heart is no longer filled with black but blue,
Au revoir stranger, goodbye... adieu.