The cold crept through the little room. I tucked more white sheets that reeked of bleach onto you. If I was cold, you must've been colder. 10 hours have passed and you laid on that tiny bed breathing heavily as if you haven't had a good sleep in years.
Sleep husband. Sleep away your pain. So many people rushing to and fro, moving behind the curtains that gave us a little privacy. The noise soothed my aching heart for you. Beside you is where I belonged and I hope you know.
My back ached, my body sore but nothing compared to yours. I leaned onto you, stroked your hair and lightly kissed your cheek. "Get better hun, I miss you already."
I called your mother with the sanity left in me and your siblings too. Took a deep breathe and waited for them to pile into the little curtained room.
2 days have passed, not a single one of your family members showed. It all seem as though it was my fault, as though your diabetes went off the chart because I couldn't monitor you well enough. It was my fault your parents didn't show nor did your siblings. I am not a great person with enough to love. But you are. So I am sorry dear husband that I love you too much and kept you. I am sorry that no one but I, stayed permanently beside you. "Did mom and dad come?" You woke up asking. "Yes they did but you were sleeping for awhile and so they waited and left." I just hoped you never find out the truth my dear husband. You looked at me with a smile in your eyes and went back to sleep. Diabetes is no joke, with a number as high as yours, you could've gone into shock, cardiac arrest or even worse. My tears rolled onto my cheeks unknowingly. Thoughts that weren't pleasant shouldn't be thought of but I wish I could create a miracle for you or even take away your pain. I'm sure I am stronger than you and I have handled worse.
Finally prepping discharged, your sugar level back to normal. I gathered all your things and helped you up. You gave me a look of gratitude and hugged me. And you softly said "Thank you hun, for being there for me everyday. Even when I never did the same for you." I leaned onto you and hugged you tight "Thanks for staying alive." I replied. I just hope one day you know how much I love you no matter what may have happened in the past. I hope you know i had never given up on you even when it was so much easier to quit. Now get better husband. We have to live until we are over 120 years old!