Let Me Be Yoursunrise4ever...

[yoursunrise4ever]

Thank you mother for being the wind beneath my wings. For carrying me over the Pacific ocean so that I can have a better life. You are the umbrella that is always protecting me from the hot sun. In your shade, I'm sheltered from the wind, dust, rain, and heat. Your ever so caring and compassion heart shine so brightly like a light that never flickers out even during the stormy nights. I am amazed by all the things that you've gone through in your lifetime and how strong you've remained through all these years. I only wish I will be as strong as you and stand on my own two feet. But most of all, thank you for giving me life. I love you. "Happy Mother's Day"

[yoursunrise4ever]

Dear NH,
 
I know that you are going through alot right now in your life and you're probably confused about alot of things but I wanted you to know that I am here for you. I'll help pull you through the darkness. I'll be your friend even if you refused to be mine. It was our personal struggles and life experiences that brought our paths together. How can I forsake a friend at his worst moment? Although you've expressed to me that it hurts too much to be my friend, I wanted you to know that I've never stop being one to you. I hope that you will allow me to be the ears for you to confide in and be the shoulders for you to cry on. In this big lonely world, we all need someone.
 
We  may be thousand of miles apart but don't ever feel like you can't reach out. I admired your determination to want a better life and to find love again.
 
Always,
 
Sunrise

[yoursunrise4ever]

In a instant, it seems that I had you but when I woke up, you were forever gone from me. I can't recall the last time I held you in my arms. Those are the moments that I want to relive over and over again. To breathe, to have a heart beat, to feel the hurt, I'm alive once more.

[yoursunrise4ever]

Have you ever wanted to just take a leap of faith? Just do it and forget about the world? Right or wrong, you only live once right? Well, I'm kinda feeling this spur of the moment thing where I just want to do something out of the ordinary for once but why am I so afraid? My life must be really boring for me to think this way. 

[Mattster]

What do you want to do?  Who's life isn't boring?  Boring is relative.  One can argue the least boring life is the one where you've yet to experience anything.  You have so much to look forward to.

[yoursunrise4ever]

Mattster, I want to try and do everything while I'm still alive. I want to live life to the fullest. Time does not stand still. I feel like I'm just getting older by the years and there are still so much left to see and do in this world before my time comes.
 
 

[proudlao]

Enjoy life, for you and I know too damn well it's very short. One should never be deprive of what they want to do as long as you do not take each others for granted. Nothing to extreme, and be considerate of one another.
 

[yoursunrise4ever]

I feel like i've been neglecting my journal lately. I guess, it's because I don't have much to say. Everything that I am feeling or thinking, I've keeping them inside.   
 
Summer is here, and it usually bring back great memories of yester years. When life was much more easy and some dreams were attainable. Looking back, I wouldn't change a thing about my life but then if I did, would my life be slightly different today? I agree, it would have. Our roads would not have crossed. I guess it probably would be better had we not met. For you've changed my life completely in every ways and shapes. Bad or good, I can't fault you 100% because I am guilty of loving you.

[yoursunrise4ever]

It's pretty sad to know that someone that you came to respect would turn around and use another nick to come and bash on you. I don't get people at all.    Had, I not known, I would still respected you and talk to you as a friend. Had, I not know, I would still be a fool in your eyes. I'm glad that you came to light today and now I know what type of guy you are. I thought you were different. I thought you were a nice guy but I guess that was only a mask that you put on to fool people. What have I ever did? You did not have to be so cruel. I thought we shared some common experiences which led to our meeting but I was very wrong about you.
 
I will delete you out of my friendship book.

[yoursunrise4ever]

Mattster, I really miss your friendship. Where have you been up to these days. I don't see your name anymore. 

[Mattster]

Hi.  Sorry, work has been crazy lately and I just have not had much opportunity to post. 

Things should settle down a bit soon which will give me a chance to catch up with you.  I promise to devote more time with you. 

[yoursunrise4ever]

4th of July was very relaxing. Spent it with the family. Was thinking about catching the "Lone Ranger" but did not go. It was very hot/humid on Saturday and Sunday. My a/c was only almost 24/7. I don't want to look at my next month's electricity bill.. I know it's going to be high.
 
This fall, I'm thinking of traveling to Las Vegas for a few days. I have not been there for over 20 years now so it would be great to see LV again. My friends tell me that it has changed alot since then. New casinos and buildings. I don't want to go during the summer time because it's too hot. I hope that I will get to go.
 
Work is crazy as usual. I will be very busy for the next two weeks. Wished I had more time off.. so I can bum around.

[yoursunrise4ever]

Life is like a roller coaster. Just when you thought it couldn't get any worse, it does and you find yourself thinking to yourself "Why am I here?"
 
There's only so much a human is capable of enduring or doing. There's only so much time in a day. So many days in a month. I want to give up and just run away from it. Pretend that this part of my life never existed.

[proudlao]

If you do, I am south of you. Please stop by.

[supadupac]

Life is like a roller coaster. Just when you thought it couldn't get any worse, it does and you find yourself thinking to yourself "Why am I here?"
 
There's only so much a human is capable of enduring or doing. There's only so much time in a day. So many days in a month. I want to give up and just run away from it. Pretend that this part of my life never existed.

i believe, as being a living creature, we are just built to endure.. and that's just what we have to get use to doing.. becuase if we do not endure, we'll never succeed, be happy or be anything we want.. enduring, is one of the biggest things in life we have to learn to do and get used to.. yeah, sometimes we reach a breaking point, but we remain strong.. i hope you remain strong.. i mean, it's easier said than done, that's for sure.. but, to me, in my opinon, enduring sometimes is all we can do..

"We all live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. There are other forces at work in this world Froday, besides the will of evil. Bilbo was meant to find the Ring. In which case, you were also meant to have it. And that is an encouraging thought."
- gandalf

love that quote